FML...

Woohoo for another long and bad day this week. I think i'm on a roll..

First, I get like NO sleep, so im tired and cranky ALL DAY

Second, I have to drive to my home town to drop off my younger sister's FREE car.

Third, I have to drive back in the same vehicle as my blood dad- Ken. Oh joy.

I've hit three. But guess what. THERE'S STILL MORE!

Forth, I get an email from my mom going "WTF" to find this picture in my 15 year old sister's car that said dad bought for her.

Saying "Show me your booty hole?"

So not only is my mom not happy, but she decides that i'm the best option to take it out on since she doesn't have Ken (her ex-husband's) cell number. Yippy for me. Anyone can guess how happy with that I was. So now i'm stuck playing messenger between Ken and my mom. So now both of them are about as happy with me as I am with them. Like seriously, it was cloudy and no sun, how the fuck was I supposed to know that was there?!

Fifth, I hate going to my hometown and I have to do that again on Saturday to deal with family stuff, and sit down and have a talk with my mom. Cause frankly. I'm tired of the bullshit that comes with being someone's receiving end of the cranky stick. It wasn't ok when I as 13 and it's even less ok now that i'm 19 and still playing the "Cranky dummy role". I don't understand, and will never understand how and why I was treated the way I was then and the way I am now. GAH! They better leave me out of it for the rest of this conversation about the crap with my sisters FREE car. I don't want anything to do with it.

I mean, I had to pay for my car. It wasn't free. What kind of bullshit deal is that?! Her insurance, gas, and car... FREE?! Question to all parents, what's with the oldest kid getting crap all, having to work for the shit that they want. But as soon as the second and third child come around, they get crap for free. I thought it was supposed to be equal. Well being told that you're the LEAST loved out of all the kids, honestly, from your mother. I guess I should have been expecting that.

Sixth, I have to work till 11 tomorrow night, but we're doing "Moonlight Madness". I'm the only trainee, and apparently it's sometimes worse than Christmas sales. Goodie.

Seventh, I have to go back home on Saturday to deal with family crap (Know I said it twice, but it needed repetition).

Hmmm, I think that's actually about it. This blog does seem to been helping out alot with my stress and anger issues. Its good to get them out, even to people that you don't know and will probably never know. Just because i'm a bottler (bottle feelings till exploded), this is so helpful. To not be judged when you talk to someone about these issues, but to just have them out and people to read, and some even go "I've been there". It's good to know that you're not alone :)

-Re