Never heard...

So I go to my hometown for the purpose of sitting down and having a serious talk with my mom about how she treats me. Well, I sit down and try to tell her, and I get lectured in turn. So that's really not what I wanted. It seems that whenever I got to her to try and talk to her, she turns around and puts it back on me. Saying that how I feel is my own fault and wasn't caused by her. That and I need to "look through other people's lens'" well you know what mom.... you're not fucking looking through MY lens. You say you do, but you're really not. Obviously if you sit there and say that you basically say that you did what you did because of "parenting" well I hope you know that if I EVER become a parent (which I highly doubt), I can guarantee is that I will NEVER use your "parenting techniques". Because quite frankly. They sucked for me.

Like seriously. And me. A people-pleaser now? You obviously don't know me, cause quite frankly. I'm not. My boyfriend nearly pissed himself laughing when I told him you said that. Since he knows me better than you have known me in YEARS, well i'm taking his opinion moreso than yours.

You say you want a mother-daughter relationship. Well FUCKING work on it. Don't fucking expect me to do all the work on this "miraculous" appearance of a relationship with you while you just sit on your ass. It ain't gunna happen. Does that send you the message of a "people-pleaser"? I can promise you that after these few years, you have NO IDEA who I am now a days. So don't even try to pretend. Frankly, i'm done.

Take me seriously, I'm an adult now, treat me like it. Cause guess what, you're not going to be treated as the elder anymore since I don't live "under your roof" anymore. So I don't have to pretend to like you anymore.

Such as life Mom. Don't expect me to roll over and take your crap anymore. Cause it ain't gunna happen.

Anyways, thank god i'm out of that environment now and back home. I'm pretty excited about that, though Gord has been cranky most of today so it's not helping me all that much, then watching him get to sleep while I drove home exhausted and with puffy eyes from crying. I'm so excited to go to sleep and get back to work tomorrow. The distraction is much needed.

So night all <333

-Re